Departure

This morning was filled with packing and cleaning, in a race to squeeze in all of our goodbyes. Ernesto came downstairs to play Old Maid with the boys, while I cleaned up. The boys were bickery, and their game was not fun, which left everyone feeling sad. Had we known this was the last game, we would have all joined, all laughed, all cheered appropriately. Because, truly, heartily, dearly, seriously, Ernesto was the greatest. Such a good friend. Thank you Ernesto for your beautifully spoken English, for your games and fun, for making my boys so happy!

With an hour to spare, we ran down to The Shack, for one last cream cheese bagel (Nate loved the cream cheese) and to bid farewell. The Shack befriended us, fed us and made us feel at home, each day in Costa Rica. Thank you (mucho mucho) Harry, Joselin, Rosa, Jay and Becca!

Leaving the Shack, I started to feel a little Dorothy in Oz-ish. We hadn't had our morning dive into water, so the three of us walked our dirt road, sweating like piglets. We saw our beloved Pinka, and left a bag of food for her and her owner.

When we unlocked the gate, Marie-Cecile was there to say goodbye. She gave me a great T-shirt from the Institute, so I can represent in Cambridge, and she hugged the boys. She told us how Ernesto was sad to see us go, and how he would miss the boys. I left their email addresses to stay in touch. Of course we all promised to write and visit, and I sure hope we do. I hate how quickly life swallows and dictates one's time and heart. Marie drove us to the end of the road, where we were to meet our ride to the airport. Saying goodbye was much harder than I thought it would be, and I felt horrible for being a sweat bomb and hugging her in yuckiness. She is a warm and honest person, with a very clear sense of right and wrong, good and bad, inspirational and disappointing. Marie and James remind people of the life--the stories of the tree families, the songs of the oceans, the painted flash of colorful baby geckos. They laugh musically, and teach appreciation, respect and how to listen to our earth. They are doing, not watching, and they are caring, not ignoring. It was such a pleasure to meet your family, and we all feel so lucky to have been invited in for a month. Thank you.

And once she pulled away, we drowned in our sweat, and waited with our pile o' packs. Max ran down to the beach to say goodbye to Jeff and Justin, and returned with our Scarecrow, Rene. He left his post to say goodbye and saluted the boys. Rene told us how nice it was to know our family, and brought some tears to my eyes. Had I been sharper, I would have let him know how much we learned from him: his ease and comfort with the natural world, and the way he communicated the beauty he saw in the ocean and earth, helped the boys feel at peace with the beach. These truths were articulated simply through the rhythm of his manner, and dance in his voice and eyes. He was playful, which broke down any and all doors of fear; setting the boys loose to play. Rene was an accidental but very appreciated friend. Thanks so so much, Rene. 

Our van pulled up, and that was it. The guys and I watched our home for a month drive by, and pointed out the window at the things we loved.  And while our bodies were so happy to be in an air conditioned van, we were all sad to leave, and quietly bummed. 

 

Driving away

Driving away

Salut Tasha

Salut Tasha

Goodbye Bali

Goodbye Bali

Adios Senior Harry y Seniorita Joselin

Adios Senior Harry y Seniorita Joselin

Goodbye Lorena (beautiful photo by Marie-Cecile) 

Goodbye Lorena (beautiful photo by Marie-Cecile) 

Goodbye Oceano

Goodbye Oceano

Adios agua pipa y coconuts  

Adios agua pipa y coconuts  

Goodbye Potrero  

Goodbye Potrero  

Sailing and goodbye

Favorite whispered sentence:

"I can't believe what I have just accomplished!" 

Our last day as locals couldn't have been better. I ran to town early to begin checking off my to do list for our departure. Veered off to the beach, sunk into the ocean and slowed my heart down from the run, before picking up cinnamon rolls for the boys.

Over breakfast, we talked about how we adjusted this month. How our bodies adjusted to the heat, and how our feet were super tough and calloused from the sand. We talked about being covered in salt, and wearing bathing suits as clothing: no shirts, no shoes, no problem. We noticed how we wake earlier in Costa Rica from the heat, monkey howls and coo birds, but fall asleep heavily at 8:00p. We saw more smiling, slower walking and more nature-/less man-enforced rules. Nate was nostalgic and wished for more time. Max was pumped for his sailing lesson, wishing we could stay next week. They were pleasant and chattering, and sounded like two other boys. Last night, my boys were just about done with the summer, and dying for Brown Bear and Ti. These guys always trip me up, especially when I'm exhausted. Personally, I felt like this trip was a struggle at times, and was sure that they agreed. I thought I read discontent from Max and Nate, but maybe not. They are growing into people, and my handle on their working minds is loosening more each year.

I check off bank, check off laundry, check off breakfast, check off boys packed.

Beach. The sun was monster hot, and competed with very few clouds. There would be no rain today. We ouched across the sand and tsssssss cooled our pigs in the water, where we set our goals.

Nate had agreed to borrow a life jacket and swim to the dock with me, during Max's sailing lesson. Max agreed to sail alone with Jeff, the instructor (who reminds me of Nicky). I agreed to swim all day and encourage these goals into reality. Five minutes until the lesson, Max had begun his doctor-visit-like apprehension, and the sand was so hot that it served as an excuse for both boys to ask to bail. "Let's just go, mom. Please we hate this."

This is a common and never, ever easy position for me. I know both boys with be wonderfully changed if they stick to their personal challenges, but they are fighting me with last minute nerves. Like embarrassingly so. Like stubbornly and angrily so. Sew, so I swallowed my own brat down, grabbed Nate and ran to the water. 

"Don't look back! 'Do like mothers in nursery school!'" I yelled over as we ran. Nate and I stayed underwater or ducked down until Max looked semi-cool. Jeff waved and started dragging the small, blue, racing sailboat to the water. Max was getting started, and I looked at the red boy to say,

"Let's go get you a life jacket, son." 

Now Nate did the dance of hesitation. "I don't know, mom! I think I'd rather not. Maybe next year.."

I'm just the worst mom ever. Nate was loaned a life jacket by Justin (who grabbed his lapels in a 'get a hold of yourself, man!' sort of way) and made sure of the tight fit. We ran over the searing sand and headed toward the dock. 

Well folks when all was said and done, both boys left the beach very proud and happy. Nate was astonished and all teeth the entire swim to the dock. The jacket allowed him to really focus on his arms, (how to best cup and pull the water to propel himself along), and his form really improved. And he felt it. He was beaming, and super amazed every time he looked back at the shore. Max sailed by us and the boys yelled excitedly to each other. Nate climbed the dock ladder, and (as quoted earlier) couldn't believe what he had accomplished.  He waved to Max who showed us how to capsize his boat. Then we basked like seals.

Max sailed for another hour, and Nate and I watched from the dock and then from shore. The last ten minutes or so picked up, and the water went from gentle to choppy; showing Max how quickly the conditions can change. The sun was getting lower in the sky and making those dancing sparkles along the horizon and on Max's boat. Wait until you see the sailing pictures! Max was awesome, and really enjoyed himself. He is now looking for a used sailboat to restore. Jeff said he was a natural and hoped Max would be able to keep it up. Max was absolutely lit up. 

So I got my beach day of swimming and handstands and mud slopping and picture taking, and the boys both exceeded their personal expectations. Perfect last day. 

We handed out our contact info and promised to pop in for goodbyes before flying out in the morn.

These new lives of ours- these summer lives- and the relationships that we cultivate over a month's stay, weave into our hearts, and change us. Experiential education demands a multidimensional focus, unlike the teachings of a lecture or collaborations in a classroom. All are different and essential beasts of education. The necessary analysis and conversation make sense of the experience, and can spawn further research and innovation. But if you are the seeker, being the seekers, we are in it. You feel the air, the adjustment with mind, body and soul. We are part of the experiment. To watch my boys adapt to our month long adventures first by establishing a home, makes perfect sense to me, but is still warming to watch. It's structure but it's personal and touching. Us human beings are pretty fascinating.

We loved our dirt road walks and scurrying creatures. We loved watching the ocean pour and pull over our feet and Earth. We loved seeing new friends waving. And speaking different languages, but laughing and crying universally; left the language barrier to shrink by comradery's wayside. I think we all just loved feeling comfortable, finding our feet, following a routine and becoming familiar faces. It sort of makes the whole world feel approachable.

 

 

 

Sailing

Sailing

Ocean

Ocean

Shack

Shack

Road home

Road home

Two days

 

Max is 11 hung in the doorway and presents were attacked at 6:30am. Silly things, like cereal toys and key chains, but even junk is mysterious and wonderful when wrapped.  I made a winkish breakfast using a tin-foil serving plate I found, and we managed a pretty nice birthday breakfast.

Max and I took a quick trip to the beach for his last gift, while old man Nate napped. We reserved a sailing lesson for Max, and the lady at the super mercado gave him a birthday bracelet. On the walk home, my favorite, favorite dog popped out from the woods. She ran over to us just for love. Refused food, just leaned her nose into my leg.

Oh my god. I love these surprise gasps of clear air in life, that explanations seem to spoil. Looking at Penny was like seeing my old friend. For whatever reason, time stops and the colors change. That's the best I can do. The chance meetings of like minds are the gifts that no one sees coming, and I hate when they are not honored. I'm actually known for not only noticing such sparks, but for pointing them out and holding onto them...sometimes brattily because they are too special. Anyhoo, it's 95 degrees, we are maybe two minutes from a cool, green pool (Polar Bear Bros book), but Max and I are standing in the middle of the dirt road, loving Penny the dog. After a good ten minutes, a car drives by us and pulls into the garage where we usually say goodbye to the puppy. Max caught up to the driver, and we both gushed about how much we loved his dog. 

"She's not my dog." 

!   Turns out Penny is named Pinka, and spends time at the house next door to the garage. He wasn't sure if she belonged to the woman next door or just hung out there. He said she is always hungry and doesn't seem to be looked after. Pinka runs over when he opens the garage, and he feeds her snacks. "Can we take her home?" Max asked, and he shrugged and said,

"I really don't see how they'd mind." 

Oh dear me.  

The rest of the day was spent at the pool, as per the birthday boy's request. I scoured google for information in rescue and fostering centers in the area, and cargo shipping. The possibility of actually bringing Pinka home, with two days to prepare vaccinations, travel papers, a crate and transportation to the airport was a dream at best. But. But, I had to just see if it could work.  

Amazingly enough, people actually do this- ship animals. In order to bring Pinka home, she would need a month long quarantine and would not be able to fly until mid-September. The rescue in the area offered vet work and foster services if needed, and the super sweet couple at the Shack also extended an invite to Pinka, to help with a short term stay. It could happen.

Nate and I went out to feed Pinka some tuna, and when we turned the corner, we saw her body flopped in the middle of the road. I was sure she was unconscious. Nate ran over and saw her eyes blink. No body movement, but, thank goodness she was alive.  I opened the tuna and scooped it out to hand feed her. She ate it. She sat up. Yay, she was just super hungry, and I scraped the last of our tuna pouches out, and she licked my fingers clean. I was done for. Totally ready now to take her home, and set all of the logistics into motion, as she thanked us with licks.

"Hello." Walking toward us was Pinka's owner. Sigh. So, Pinka was abandoned a few years ago, and just claimed this woman's home as her own. This woman looked to be a bit older than I, and has a decent property and ranch to herself. She is not native, but white, thin and missing teeth. Lots of missing teeth down here; I might lose mine with all the sugary drinks. Her owner said she is struggling to feed herself, and so food is not a priority for Pinka. She does care for the puppy and Pinka seems to like her owner, but money and medical care are available to Pinka on an unreliable donation basis. At this point she is giving a brief bio and running down the vaccination list, which sounds like a salesperson unloading a deal. I couldn't be sure if she was introducing us to Pinka, or if she actually wanted us to take her. I felt pushy but told her that if she was looking for a new home for Pinka, we would happily take her to Cambridge. I gave her my information, and really am not sure what she thought of us. Very strange. I told her I was so happy that someone loved Pinka, and as we started to leave she said, "Yes, she's sweet. If you want to drop off some money or food that would be ok too." I was sort of waiting for that.

"We will definitely bring some more treats! Please feel free to contact me, ok?"

And that was that. 

The birthday party. I will upload a video and pictures soon, because I'm not sure that I will describe it properly. After dinner, Ernesto joined us for caramel flan and cards. He sweetly brought cookies and ice cream and the four of us played a very serious Old Maid tournament. I'm not even sure if the rules were made up. It was so simple, but the most fun.

Max said "..maybe my best party yet." 

We ended the night with some packing and Tom and Jerry en espanol. Happy birthday Max! 

Pinka

Pinka

Max is 11

Max is 11

Maxwell, Nate and Ernesto

Maxwell, Nate and Ernesto


Eleven

 

Eleven years ago I was in Massachusetts General Hospital. There was a tiny person in my room. He had a headful of dark hair and a perfect face; long eyelashes, full cheeks and wore a smug "humph" expression in his sleep. 

Today there is a boy in my room. He has a headful of shaggy, brown hair and a perfect face; long eyelashes, full lips and a serious expression as he reads The Lightning Thief for the tenth time.

I'm not sure how that happened. I have no idea what will happen next. Perhaps the clues to the next eleven years might lie behind those eyelashes, that expression and that perfect face, because more so than anyone I've known, the will and strength and character behind that face, has gone unchanged. 

Happy birthday my first boy love.

Maxwell 2 yrs. old  

Maxwell 2 yrs. old  

Creatures

We are still trying to get pictures of all of the creatures, but for now, here are our creature accounts and a few phone shots.

We will try to catch one of the many yellow butterflies and dragonflies in Guanacaste. They are always around, so I tend to forget to notice them. I hear a monkey howling every morning, but I haven't seen him. The squirrels are leaner and the colors of a Saint Bernard. I smell skunks. There are a bunch of wasp nests.

We haven't run into any mosquitos, but Nate and I are feasted on by these invisible gnat pests every day. We both wake with new bites, (maybe/ probably spider bites) that feel deeper and are a bitch to heal. But since we are nicely tanned, we don't look as diseased as we should. Max is untouched.

I owe you some yellow-belly birds close up, some geckos, maybe a snake (although my snake encounter freaked me out, so I am hoping not to meet another). Oh, and we should snap some roaming chickens.

Once you get down with the fact that everything moves, then it's not so weird. A tiny caterpillar crawled out from the lock as I was opening the door, and it just kept coming out. Nate and I watched it grow longer and longer, and our very quiet squeal grew higher in pitch and stretched out until we saw the end of this trillapede. Geckos are in the pool, toads are in the house, road kill here is crushed crab..it's different.

Tarantula

Tarantula

Yellow belly birds

Yellow belly birds

Rooster

Rooster

Iguana

Iguana

Whatever this is

Whatever this is

About six inches tall. He was in our house. 

About six inches tall. He was in our house. 

He followed us to lunch

He followed us to lunch

Cows

Cows

Pretty

Pretty

Feliz Dia de Madre

 

It's August 15, 2015. Mother's Day in Costa Rica.

Today I slept in a bit, fed the beasts and made coffee. The boys wanted to prepare a surprise for Mother's Day, so I ran around the block, to give them some space to scheme. I returned to homemade, loverley cards, and the boys' promise to oblige my day's requests. First wish: to swim to the beach dock, and lie around like a seal. Off to the beach we go, where Nate read, and Max and I swam out in super low tide. We slopped on the dock, and watched the fish swim and the sailboats capsize during their lessons. We cheered on a black lab, whom I named Elly, as she swam steadily back and forth from the shore to the dock. There was an oddball fella cleaning the dock's ropes and underside. Max and I lounged on the dock and would wave or say "Hola," whenever the guy popped up, but he never responded. Dude just looked at us and quietly sank down again; evoking nervous laughter from me and Max.

Pruned and hungry, we called it a day and went home to clean up for the Mother's Day Festival (wish #2: attend local Mother's Day party). We hopped in the blue van (this time with snacks and iPods), and drove up to the Lorena pipeline. I thought we were heading into town to celebrate, but the festival was at the farm. We were the first to arrive. 

So something to say: lost with manners and the automatic respectful response to everyone and anyone, is the ability for children today to make some play of nothing. This is innate. So what the hell is going on? What is this default boredom, or lethargy that I see in my kids when they are slightly off? Lost, my ass, because I KNOW the beasts know how to play, but the absence of humility in behaving like entitled princes, is too horrific for me to accept. Today the boys were bored, were hot, were impolite and they were the only children with these issues. 

Wanting to be invisible, I took pictures again. I'm a bad hider, always have been, so eventually I was "mucho gracias"-ing and "los siento"-ing with these super wonderful people. The hiding part always makes me question my ability to document. I've got a serious sensitivity thing which makes me worry about ruining the moment of life with my clicking. I do feel the addictive draw, described by photojournalists, to quickly grab what I see, beautifully...but I am not impervious to the emotion in the air.

Anyway, were I a pro, I would have award winning shots to prance around, because today was pretty amazing. Lorena's families came out to celebrate its mothers. We all gathered at the drill site and listened to a three piece band (guitar, cheese grater and hollow block) who sang favorite town and party songs. There was a mini-speech (maybe about mothers), applause and then the food was served. From a five gallon Poland Springs bubbler jug, juice was poured into small cups and handed to everyone. This was no small feat, and important to emphasize, that EVERY person was handed a plate and cup; again like a family reunion. The trunk of a greenish sedan was opened to unleash a huge tub of food, prepared for the group (picture the ice bucket under a keg; that's the size of the food bucket). Rice, chicken, tomatoes, chives and a piece of white bread were portioned, and passed around like birthday cake. Delicious, truly. The kids played frisbee, and ate marshmallows, the babies danced to the music, everyone laughed and sang (except for Max and Nate). It rained on and off, and the singing never stopped, and the food and drink were enjoyed with the company. When the last of the rice was eaten and the final drops of juice drunk, the party was over, packed up and the bikes and cars sputtered away.

Here's what happened next. As we sat in the van to leave, James took a sad phone call. It was clear that he was confused and offered no reasonable explanation or details, but was told that Joe, his giant, goofy, lovable dog, was dead. I listened and understood most of the conversation, but Ernesto confirmed by saying quietly in English, "Joe is dead." 

I still do not know the full story, but Joe was not old, sick, not injured. The boys'-my boys, my beasts- reaction was "can I have my iPod now?" Such news is so, so bizarre and wrinkles the head, right? I paid attention to my head's waves of

Is something wrong?

Something is wrong.

Something terrible happened.

Joe the dog was choked by his collar, I think.

And then

the waves from withIN the car rushed in and drowned any slow to process thinking going on in my own head. Marie-Cecile and James! Poor Ernesto! Too mysterious and tragic was this news, leaving all of us unable to say or do the right thing. There was some silence and the sky grew dark, as we all thought and soaked and thought and soaked and thought.

Nate asked Ernesto if he'd like to play with his iPod, and the three boys played in the back, while Marie and James quietly spoke to each other. I sat in the middle row, and watched and listened and thought and soaked.

James pulled up to the gate, and Bali and Tasha (the two German Shepherd girls) came running out to the car. I felt just .. dark, I guess, sort of like a shadow. Such a strange day. I offered to take Ernesto to the apartment if they needed to sort the situation, but Marie just smiled and thanked me. The families hugged and "Gracias"ed and somberly retired. Once inside, I delivered this talk:

We all feel. Everyone feels differently; filtering through his own Rube Goldberg set up of emotions, at his own speed, but we all feel the vibes and willies from the outside and inside. When us peoples are all together, (in a big pool or city or party, feeling our own personal stuff), we enter into an unspoken contract: to agree to be good. Otherwise, if everyone wore their egos on their bib, society would be chaos. This is why we are polite, kind, ethical and aware when with our fellow humans. Please and thank you always, help a neighbor always, do your part and be good, because it's part of the deal. Respect. Because we are all important. Respect because you are a part of something, now that you are growing up.

What happened tonight was so crazy and really, really hard to figure out. No one knows what to do with a surprise of sadness. But when you start from a place of goodness, of kindness, of politeness and respectfulness, you leave room to bounce up to happy or down to sad without overextending your rubberband head. Today you boys were sulky and all-consumed with your own doldrums thoughts. You watched nothing, you added nothing, you learned nothing and remained stuck in a low place. When we heard the news about Joe, you were already so self involved and moody that the only reaction was "I'm bored." I don't think that's what you wanted to feel, and I know you certainly didn't feel that way as the news sunk in, but because you were in a pit, you really had no way to react from a level headed, good playing field. Good is clear headed, and is a place of advantageous view and understanding. Good can see happy and sad more clearly than any other state of mind. And good can react, and help and be a friend.

I know you are good, and I know tonight you helped Ernesto and felt just as much sadness as I did. These feelings will only get more complicated as you grow, but it's much easier if you start from a good place.

I have no idea if any of this got through. I know they are mad that I am writing this at all. I feel like this a lot; like a ghost. I am trying so hard to make sense, to help them become honorable members of society, to acknowledge their feelings and to realistically integrate them into the world- invisibly while easing the harder pains. I am trying to show them, to take them, to listen to them and to watch them. I am feeling all of their feelings and all of mine intensely, while watching them play out in a field of everyone else's real life feelings. I feel like I'm messing up all of the time. They erupt in the face of my efforts, leaving me to doubt. I am giving it all I have in this emotional black hole...and so basically, today, I feel like a mom. And believe it or not, just writing that sentence reassures me. Happy Mother's Day to all of the mothers.

 

Soccer ball

Soccer ball

Mother's Day cards

Mother's Day cards

I see, I say

Today I said "Buenos Dias Senior" to the ChickenMan, which means I now will say good morning, every morning to him. I got an enthusiastic wave and returned greeting, as well as a good look at my favorite character. Picture an emaciated Wasserman in a t-shirt. Something in his eyes reminded me of Steve, who happens to be another favorite of mine. To be clear, my mental favorite list is based entirely on respect; I would never be intrigued otherwise. I totally respect Steve, and I totally respect the ChickenMan. 

I've also bravely spoken en espanol, even when I really am super buried and my words are painfully slow.

I caught a hairy spider.  

I did a back dive off the dock.

And I'm chilling out. Just in time for Costa Rican Mother's Day (tomorrow, yay me!).

The guys? They are on each other's nerves, but I see stuff worth sharing. Max's caring relationships with all of the animals here, are completely endearing. I really do think he would be a lovely pet owner.

Nate's diving and unflinching wave play has really impressed me. It's a triumph for Nate to attack and ride, while everything in his mind screams abort! run! Owning his physical strength and coordination. This is a big deal.

Not to mention that both boys play with Ernesto in mixed English-Spanish. They splash chanting "Donde esta?!" "En la cara!" "Los Sientos!" "Es mio!" and "Bombe!" Nothing fluent or even close, but it's something. It's small effort. Ernesto's english and patience are wow-great, and the guys are trying to reciprocate; totally appreciative of his hard work. But, like, this is a Nate quote, "I am actually a phantasmo, Ernesto, ok? Bueno?"

See? Spanish! We're working on it. 

Tomorrow I've been promised a bicker-free day, a mask dive below the dock and a festival in Cartagena to celebrate Mother's Day. Looking forward to whatever tomorrow holds.

 

 

 

 

 

Comforter curtains

Comforter curtains

Perro bravo

Perro bravo

Hills of Catalinas

Hills of Catalinas

Agua Pipa

I've mentioned the Sailing Center in passing, but it should be noted that these guys are sweethearts. Though they might regard us privately as "oh no, them again," Justin and Rene (and we've recently met Jeff- super nice) have been nothing but friendly faces. They greet us, advise us and endure our station camp, which is totally on their turf. Justin runs the sailing camp, and Nate raved one day about how nice a guy he was; "...apparently there is some buried treasure out there that the kids race to retrieve..." I was too shy to chat, but always got a warm hello from him.

Rene rented us a paddle board and helped Max fight his way over the waves. Rene was an excellent teacher, and soon became a friend. "Hola Rene!" yell the boys. He showed Max how to cut down coconuts, and would bring over open baby coconuts for Nate and me to drink. Agua Pipa delicioso. Any questions about the area, the ocean, the creepy crawlies that walked the beach might be answered by Rene, with mucho gusto. So much thanks to the Costa Rica Sailing Center, for hospitably adding to our stay; [http://costaricasailing.com/].

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Oceano

Although we walk the coast and have scoped other beaches, we have made the closest outlet to home our main go-to. In the morning, I run up through the mountains of Las Catalinas or over to Potrero Center, and I try to get lost, but I usually end up at our beach to dunk, Virginia Woolf style. It's good to have a base. I wave to the ChickenMan, and slip home barefoot to gather the beasts for breakfast and beach. It's fair to say that the restaurant on the way to our beach base, The Shack, has also been a daily stop. Senior Harry and Seniorita Joselin take care of the boys and feed me coffees. Nate got his hand stuck in the tip jar after our first meal there, and left a favorable impression. [Shout out to The Shack: https://m.facebook.com/TheShackCR?refsrc=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.facebook.com%2FTheShackCR]

So the boys have grown with the tide and waves, and we are regulars. Next step: swimming.

Only a matter of time before the waves call you deeper. As the boys grew comfortable in our routine, they began to trust their understanding of the water. Max and I began swimming out to the dock (maybe 800ft out-maybe less/more, the tide and waves skew my estimation). Learning how to go with the waves, to sync and steady breathing was a challenge for Max. It's a super zen concept, so watching him click and GET it, was so excellent. He still doesn't like the dock, and wears an expression similar to the one he had when he was small and chubby, and the Christmas train spontaneously ran by. He hates not knowing if the dock will move. If it is securely tied. If it will carry us out to sea, and turn us into a Far Side cartoon. He trusts not.

Natey conquered his own trust issues. First predicting and riding the waves,

then "I CAN'T STAND...but I can swim." 

then floating,

then diving. 

Whenever I feel antsy about the monotonous tone of our day, I think of this. Both boys are owning their confidence, and surviving in the water, by dancing.

"It's all a dance, doll" ~ o.Coco

 

Nate Stroke

Nate Stroke

Dock

Dock

Beautiful Joselin at The Shack

Beautiful Joselin at The Shack

Luxury

Here's a weird day: the boys spent the afternoon swimming in a pool with a hot tub, waterfall and wet bar- like in the Club Med commercials (right? Club Med? Did I make that up?). We started our day at the beach. Watched the sailing center take out future captains, stumbled over a gerOss snake-fish-baby alligator thing, washed up on shore, floated...you know, it was the usual Reuter day. Nate convinced us to break for lunch, and we tried the restaurant attached to the hotel, just behind our beach bum spot. We leave our coconut tree, cross the hot sand and enter an all-white oasis; with grass, cabanas, yoga and a gift shop. After lunch, the waitress invited us to swim in the hotel pool. Nate loves this world. I hate it and feel dirty, esPECially after our trip to Lorena. But, but the boys are so happy, and have been eyeballing this pool's waterfall and high jump. So we stay, they play, I read. That's all. Tomorrow we'll go crabbing.

What IS this? 

What IS this? 

We really only see these guys around the resort. Fancy dragons. 

We really only see these guys around the resort. Fancy dragons. 

Au revoir et bon voyage mes amies!

Today we said goodbye to our new friends, as Guillemette, Sylvain, Elliot and Clementine continued their travel throughout Costa Rica. 

I am hoping to connect with Guillemette and Sylvain to follow their pending publication, but also to possibly foster a collaboration. Writing about family travel and sharing stories from our experiences on a common site might be a fun way to invite other adventurers, in other countries, to encourage experiential education. Who knows; Guillemette's love of design and background in communication might jive nicely with my awkward rambling.

Above all, however, I truly enjoyed meeting these great people, and would love to build our friendship. You have a home in Cambridge, MA if you ever come to town, sweet family! And should we lose touch, and the joint adventure and storytelling end here, I am most grateful to the brief albeit fun times we shared. Bon chance and happy travels!

[Again, beautiful family photos to come. Be well!] 

Real Costa Rica

 

Marie-Cecile and her husband James moved to Guanacaste and founded the Institute of Oceanology in Costa Rica. Here they planned excursions to explore and educate children and adults about the country's coast and land. These scientific missions quickly turned their focus toward efforts in protection and rehabilitation of these treasures, as Marie and James witnessed the heavy hand of politics involved in the coastal destruction and misuse of ecological life systems. These natural sacrifices were not used for the support and prosperity of the provinces, but for tourism, resort and gated communities and recreational private grounds (golf courses, polo fields and gardens boasting plant life not native to Costa Rica, for example). The success of tourismo bolstered the country's economy undoubtedly, but upon closer look, the price was paid by the natural resources and culture of this land. The Institute began to investigate and address the testimony from farmers and natives, (speaking against the injustice and bribery occurring within local and high levels of government), and it soon grew into an operation of activism. Their organization helped to spotlight the unyielding united front of affected and targeted towns who fought the drilling of water wells and lines. Now the situation has been exasperated by the planet's detrimental warming, and while the drilling continues to threaten, the wells in many communities are already dry.

We were invited to visit a farm with Marie and James, Guillemette and Sylvain, to hear the story of the degradation and will of a people and their home. 

[I recorded this visit completely and will upload the footage and photography in a week, (once home). For now, I will tell from our English-speaking perspective, with iPhone pictures taken by Elliot and Nate, and will try to summarize the inspiring story until the real deal is available.]

We drove out 45 km to the small village of Lorena. James drove us in a well-loved blue van (Ford somethin), with Marie, their son Earnesto, a friend (super friendly, but I've forgotten her name) and the three of us, in tow. The other family followed in their car. The windows were open and an oven hot breeze blew my face if I was angled right. Max and Nate were windless, so I was in a prize spot. I have no idea what the speedometer read, but climbing the mountains felt and sounded like the creep up a roller coaster. I've flashed back a lot to my trip to Skyros ages ago; specifically piling too many people into a pale blue, ancient Saab that drove us just a bit faster than walking. I think it's hmm, the resourceful attitude of both cultures that strike me. If all I had was a scooter with a basket to get around, I might fashion a trailer on the back to carry the guys across town; helmets and regulations be damned. If it works, use it. If it's broke, get some tape. Kind of great.

Ok so right now, in the van, I'm watching Nate start his thing; diving into dispair. He's hot and because of the language barrier, the guys aren't 100% sure of what we are doing. I wasn't even sure. So I'm making eyes at them to "be cool," while seriously over-heating. No one else was uncomfortable, just us. If you know me, you know I hate being a baby, a tourist, and I hated feeling faint now. The drive over muddy dirt roads, the heat, the lack of explanation and words for the boys all ratcheted up in my head, until I realized:

this is me leaving my comfort zone. Excellent..and..aha! and..ugh..and we arrive.

It's about 4:00p and we park along a stretch of farmland soaking in the last hottest bits of sun. The kids run to play on an old tree, and I wandered around taking pictures (feeling better having a handle on my psyche but still not quite out of the box). Sylvain was already out of his box and lit up with excitement, which made me a little jealous, ashamed and wanting to hurry my head along. Guillemette looked her calm and usual cool, which reminded me to chill, just chill. At the farm entrance we met maybe seven people; all sitting patiently and knowingly. I wasn't patient and I didn't have any answers for the boys when they asked, "what are we dooooing?" I was lucky to hide behind my camera, and, being boys, the guys raised no eyebrows when smashing rocks and logs in heated frustration. No snacks, no water, no answers; uncomfortable. [Marie is reading this now thinking "Oh dear I knew it!" but wait, I promise we pull through!] 

Three or four more cars pulled up, and middle aged men, retired women, young kids, preteens and new adults, mothers, fathers, grandparents, friends slowly joined and sat along the fence of the farm. I was called over to record the story of Lorena and why we were gathered here.

An older woman with a fedora hat and serious expression, motioned for me to sit in front. My clumsy pantomime communication cracked her up, and her face broke into a great smile. Sitting next to her, a woman began to tell...

Lorena is a small farming village located in the hills of the Nicoya Peninsula. The people of Lorena live simply, listen to nature and are contentedly detached from tourismo. Many years ago, the owner of this farm, arranged to sell a section of his land. The individual buyer turned the property in 2000, and resold to the wealthy and powerful Conchal Society. My understanding is that the Conchal Society manages and distributes the country's tourism and recreation funding. The Conchal Society is also working with the AyA, (Acueductos y Alcantarillados) the public society of water for Costa Rica. Their influence and reach is well known in Costa Rica, for getting what they want (offering promises in exchange for cooperation), and the people of Lorena generally tried to remain under their radar. Had he known the Conchal's involvement, the farmer never would have approved the sale.

Immediately, they built four drills that would drain water into a large tank on the property (across the street from where we sat). Large trucks would transport water (equalling 20 times the amount of the entire town's consumption) to resorts an hour's driving distance away. Additionally, the Conchal Society began to prepare the land for a pipeline that would take the water straight from the drilled farmland to the resort wells.

I imagine the first trucks were surprised to find their access blocked.  The farmers and people of Lorena sat on the pipeline and refused to let the construction trucks pass. They did this everyday, all day, alternating shifts to guard their water. For years they kept this schedule, until the Conchal Society moved on to a neighboring town.

And now, today we sit again because the next door city Tamarindo has gone dry. There is no water. The wells on this farm are also nearly dry due to the effects of the severe drought (shared by countless nations, states and cities globally). The lack of rain, endured for at least three years now, compounded with excessive drilling to keep resorts green, has dried parts of this country. The Society recently returned to Lorena to drill new spots, for new unfounded waters...and so, without question, the people of Lorena sit again. Friends join in support, and journalists have come to speak with them, but the story is quite simple. They are protecting their livelihood. They are the face of the class forgotten, and the people of our world. And the boys and I had the privilege of sitting with them.

Before I knew it, we were being shuffled into the van, this time with 14 people riding. Nate was on my lap and we were in a stifling middle seat, alongside a mother and her son (on her lap) on one side, two other women on our other side and one woman squatting in front of us. No one was bothered nor impressed by our Tetris fit. We drove through a very deep and muddy crossing, with the uneven weight of the van teetering and complicating the drive. Guillemette told me later that she and Sylvain held their breath watching us. We drove into the dusk and were let out in the middle of a festival with cowboy dressed men and women riding horses through a crowd of hundreds of residents. It was August 1 and the church at the top of the festival held mass for the celebration.

My first thought was "Air!" and immediately following was "I need water for the guys." I made a B-line through the festival toward the super mercado, and bought waters and ice creams. Once the three of us were hydrated, I turned around and realized I was in a sea of no one from the blue van. Next thought, "Ok, we can walk home. We totally can find our way."

Then I saw them. Old faces, little babies, bubbles, teenagers squealing, boys on bikes with girls on handlebars, guitars, hamburgers, laughing, hugging; families and friends who have been celebrating all day. It was like a huge family reunion, yes JUST like a family. And...

just like that I was out if my box. We were ok. I didn't know where I was but I was suddenly absorbed and loved where I was. Full of hmmm, trust, familial leaning and loving, and color and lawn chairs. I took out my camera and snapped it all, and spoke my broken Spanish, and felt so grateful that Marie brought us here. And when my stress lifted, the boys lifted. It was magic. 

We wandered a bit and finally spied Guillemette. I gave her some water and found out that she was not feeling as cool as she looked. We were both relieved to find each other, but also to see that we both were ok. I mean, I was ok. I was out. And that's how she looked-out. Sort of like when you hit a level of stress that is so ridiculous, you can only laugh. That's where we were- in the happy laugh spot. I was where Sylvain was. And I am so, so glad that my brain lets me go to happy-silly rather than to mental-breakdown. Life is so much more fun when you can ride the waves.

We ate hamburgers and tortillas with Guillemette and Sylvain, and the kids ran and played tag and monster and whatever else made them laugh like crazy. Clementine was the feared "IT," and made the boys scream as she approached.

The sun finally disappeared, and we found Marie to thank her and say goodnight. Sylvain drove us back, Guillemette cranked the AC, I sat between Clementine and Elliot (who helped me take pictures with my phone) and the beasts rode in the hatchback, (naming the cars and giggling).

[Photos of the farm owner, participant, drilled grounds and pipeline to come; including video of Lorena's story in full. Please visit the Institute's page

https://m.facebook.com/InstitutoDeOceanologia/about?refid=17

for more information until my posting is complete, and thanks for your patience.]

 

 

 

Blue van ala Ford

Blue van ala Ford

Dry

Dry

Drive

Drive

Farm

Farm

Elliot sundown

Elliot sundown

Smart travel

Day three. Helped ourselves to a new beach outlet by the farmers market, I got lost and found on a long run and we are learning the get-around and short cuts of our neighborhood. Card games, books, bracelet weaving and whittling replace the discontent of adaptation. Less aching for video games, more sparks from the imagination. Homesickness coincides with this, but at least their brains are rebooting.

Small things like: Far Side jokes instead of movie quotes

Being able to open the screen door that was, three days ago, impossibly hard

Enduring cut feet, waves in the face, jumping from heights into a pool. Noticing bugs, birds, butterflies and animals, and really loving it.

Building nations in the sand instead of staring off into space, without a clue of what to do in the sand

These things matter even if they pass.

Day three we retire from our morning at the beach, to swim in the house pool. Today, the boys meet friends. Tenants from the rooms across the way, and our host's ten year old son joined in the pool. Blasts of cannonballs erupted with three languages spoken: Spanish, French and English. Key moment. Play is just so sweet, primal and good. The boybeasts played hard and learned fast; at least how to communicate in play (awesome, awesome name for a watermelon roll into the pool: salida bombe!). I met the French family staying in the other apartment, who were in the middle of traveling the entire country. 'Smart traveling,' they call it, which I love. Guillemette looks like Ingrid Bergman, spoke all of the languages and was immediately warm and friendly. Her husband Sylvain is an engineer at Proctor and Gamble, and they both care deeply about the world we are leaving to our children, physically as well as culturally, morally and socially. Hence the smart traveling. They have two gorgeous children (Elliot is six and Clementine is three? Or maybe a fearless four). Common ground in parenting philosophies, circled conversation to money and travel, but mostly we talked about how best to nurture and educate our kids. How real experience, throughout the beauties of our real world is the stuff of foundation; impressionable and mind growing. Guillemette contacted a family travel journal in France about their expedition to Costa Rica, and the magazine asked her to submit an article. Our host was excited for the potential international attention such an article might attract, to her organization (education and activism to fight the misuse of Costa Rica's natural resources). She invited Guillemette to join a daily sit-in, at an old farm. This farm and community have battled the government over drilling and transporting local water from their land to the resorts on the coast.  After discussing the similarities and differences in the UK's approach to natural conservation, to that of the United States, and then against this story in Costa Rica, we thought we might be able to help each other learn a little, educate a little and keep the conversation going internationally- through the interwebs. She suggested the boys and I join Marie-Cecile at the farm tomorrow to photograph. Marie, as if clairvoyant, invited us to come along, and then to attend a festival in town after the farm ("real Costa Rica" she said). I liked this a lot. The boys loved playing with the kids, and I was starting to feel like I might make sense of all this senseless relaxation.


The beginning of the great poo nations

The beginning of the great poo nations

Reading the waves

Reading the waves

Uno, Dos, Bombe! 

Uno, Dos, Bombe! 

Pieces of thoughts

 

There is a global ripple running. 

I ran this morning and strung together my distaste for the manufactured beauty of his country, against what I find gorgeous here. It seems that my eye and heart tend to be drawn in by innocence and survival. Untouched overgrowth, or a landscape ruled by nature with man's childlike fingerprint smudged in, are what I see. I see jerry-rigged wire weaving together splintered branches and pieces of trees, to keep the acres of roaming cattle and chickens and horses and goats from wandering. I see a card-house/farmhouse at the helm, with a collage of tin and plank squares as the roof, flying colorful laundry and lanterns. There is something about homemade. Hard work that can be seen in both innovation and imperfection. Something about tinfoil in labs, cardboard forts and treehouses with trapdoors that endear me so.

I would never presume to relate to the abhorrent atrocities that face many countries world wide. Especially within this last decade of motherhood, I have been nothing but an observer; many times horrified at what I see and how my feet are momentarily cemented. There is so much happening, all of the time, that I can't understand, and hurts my brain to try. Still lately, I can't help noticing something of a rumble rolling under us all. The cities and families on islands and farms and in forests and mountains have been plagued with an earthly virus; just under the skin of daily reality. The skin is starting to blister to reveal and prioritize, ending the world procrastination and unison sigh of "later.." Dried wells, hurricane frequency, wildfires, internet hate-families, Facebook bullying, Twitter beheadings. Our planet and humanity are wearing tragically thin, and begging for attention.

Here in Guanacaste, effects of global warming, political calculation and human inequality are screaming, as well. Same virus, different country. In my next few posts, we will see how the middle class, and ultimately compromise, cooperation and the comradery of man still exists, and how they have made themselves heard.

The middle class represents every man's ability to succeed; to help each other up, to relate, connect and coexist with the planet for the future betterment of their culture and of every family's growth and survival. Handshakes and eye contact and smiles and manners still exist here, and are standing together to continue. Appreciation for their beautiful home, and recognizing what humanity brings to the landscape is what the people here believe. It's all so simple and sweet, and somewhere along the way, such thoughtfulness and respect became viewed as pedestrian.

Trading in real and precious for the Pinterest snapshot. Just my observation.

Townhouse complex in Las Catalinas 

Townhouse complex in Las Catalinas 

...directly across the street from this home

...directly across the street from this home

Day two_July 30

 

Day two: ah the coast.

Today we walked along the road in the opposite direction from Penca. We passed a large castle promising beachfront condos, we passed an old American car, maybe a Bonneville, souped up to look like an emergency/ police car from the 70's. The lights are on, windows tinted and the paint looks like primer white with blue and red stripes. Nice. Super mangey dog lounging beside the rockstar car. We passed a pier and gas stop for the boats next to a beach bar, and arrived at a path into Flamingo Beach. Basically, if we walked the coast line from our swim hole yesterday, we would end up here; but we would have missed all those great asphalt sights and zooming motorbikes, I guess. Genius.

Earlier we picked up a boogey board. Max would not leave the water and played for no less than five hours in the waves. Nate was still somewhat unsure, however, when armed with the board, he was fearless, and caught nearly every wave. It looked like his 40 lb bod just merged with the board, and like a dart, he'd ride all the way up to the beach.

We walked home along the beach once toasted and salted, and I introduced myself to the sailing folk to set up surfing lessons; [hopefully to be continued...].

Up the dirt road we see our first ChickenMan sighting. He drives what looks like a Suzuki Sidekick, but is actually a Geo (I didn't know they made those anymore). Anyway, it's bright red, the driver side door is open with a knee rests outside, and a chicken rides shotgun. I could easily draw him, but it wouldn't best the real thing. ChickenMan: crazy wirey, white hair and bald topped, with clear, big, smart eyes that look up to no good and very kind, at the same time. He sits in the Geo with chickens and roosters when parked and reads. He tears around the dirt roads at top speed when driving. He's awesome. Sharing either his house or neighborhood are an array of kids. The littlest one was riding an adult sized bike on the chicken driveway and road.

Next door is a tall gate with alarm system signs, palm trees, sprinklers for gardens all surrounding a Spanish style three floor home. The neighboring two story has a trampoline out front, a dog that could be Neil Diamond's brother, and a friendly mom who welcomed us over anytime. Here in Costa Rica kids just play, she told us.

Further down is an overgrown plot of land for sale. vines and palms and a short barbed wire divider that weaves through the green. Then we see a house for sale that is covered in vines, a few steps before a large, white, stucco, guarded home. This house is across from ours. I heard its owner scolding (what I thought was) a dog, before my morning run.

No bueno!! He yelled in a Texan accent. NO BUEnoo! Did you DO this?! To my CASa?!! NO BUENO!!!

I opened the gate to sneak out and pity pet the scolded pup, and instead saw the man who cleans our pool and gives me a toothy morning smile, standing across the street, looking unhappy and ego bruised.  I haven't forgiven the neighbor for his disgusting temper tantrum, and knowing me, I probably won't. But I do speak poor Spanish every buenos dias with our guard, who always engages and patiently smiles.

Still trying to settle my head, but I think I have worked this out. Bear with me: Where is the middle class? What is the middle class? Why is its ghost town absence detrimental to human kind? 




Walk

Walk

Low tide

Low tide

Book boy

Book boy

Day one_ July 29

Day one and settling in. Day one I tried to relax with the ocean, vacation and family. Suggesting to myself to turn inward, grow my beastlings' understanding and love of the ocean and use the time to play.

She said, she said to a full and busy head.

We are renting a small apartment in Guanacaste at the surf side of Playa Potrero. The houses are set back like fortresses, and are decorated with gates and barbed wire. I ran at 6am to explore our dirt roads and the paths to the beaches. I woke up the guys to continue running, and we set a beach 3k away, Playa de Penca, as our finish line. On the way, we saw floppy ear cows, one story, thatched yurts and brightly colored ranches, lots of land for sale, suzukis galore and teeny kids on big bikes chasing chickens down the road. We also saw resorts with sprinklers and automatic open-sesame gates, as well as two to three story homes flying Canadian and American flags. All the homes were wired and fenced, most had dogs. Ah, the dogs, they are everywhere- both behind the gates and roaming the streets.

Hard to say if we were among local Costa Rican people, or adding to the stream of tourismo that both fuels and drains this country. This hits my soft spot, and can't be looked at directly until I settle in more- because I can easily over react.

We ran to the beach, ran on the beach and I introduced the boys to warm waves and mud castles. Swimming in warm waters is worlds better than the ice dips into New England's Atlantic. It means handstands and flips, it means floating like a mermaid, it means enduring beating waves enough to learn how to ride. It means never wanting to come out.

I floated. The air shut off, the water poured into my ears and closed the sound. My breath filled the space and made the sky and waves and far off sand look like a movie. Lying there, I flashed through so many understudied memories of floating like this, throughout my life. Nothing noteworthy, just a super8 mind movie; as I became my 12 year old body floating, my 24 year old body floating, even my 8 year old body floating. Is it a true juxtaposition of being when sitting in the silence of my amplified breathing? Whatever it is, the sensation is for real. It occurred to me that the soothing and lifetime of personal epiphanal relations with the ocean, lie simply in its ability to calm and slow me. To shut me up, and float me.

Next door

Next door

Floppy vaca

Floppy vaca

Barbed palm at dawn

Barbed palm at dawn

Float

Float

Day almost one: arrival

 Before we begin, important to note:  my writing is fuzzy; hasn't  been sharp in a while. But if you're up to it, let's quickly sum up our arrival.

The weekend before we jetted off was super busy, and I could not snap my pep and focus out of leftover lethargy. Excited and anxious and overwhelmed were all safely buried under some 'idontcare' mud. I zombie-packed as if hiking for four weeks, minus the sleeping bags and tent essentials, plus bug and sun repellant, plus more clothes, plus more food. We got a ride to CT (thanks again!), and stayed with Grandey and Papa, who drove us to JFK early the next day. Suddenly we were on the plane, and flying (feeling like by the seat of my pants). Landing in Liberia, we butchered espanol, got a taxi to our new home, and I accidentally told the taxi driver I loved him- when trying to ask his name.

Day almost-one: disappointed and embarrassed in my lack of preparation and study of Spanish. This will only get worse, since I am no longer a sponge brained child, but need to put forth 100% effort and confidence in speaking this language, to encourage the guys.

Day almost-one: we met one of many,  many unkempt, uncollared dogs. She was rail thin and her eyes pled sweetness, through bloodshot infection. She looked like a Penny. We tried to let her be, and tried not fall in love, but she slowly followed our hesitant feet. Max ran ahead home and got her a large papaya and bowl of water. Penny guzzled the water and ate half of the fruit, and like Kaiser, disappeared into the woods. If this keeps up, we may return with a dog.

Day almost-one: we met our hosts and were told to relax and enjoy. I have learned that relaxing is not really possible for me, so I'm sure to respond with feelings of rationalized guilt and failure, until I chill out and fully adjust. Unfortunately, knowing this does not ease my transition.

Found the beach

Found the beach

Drive  

Drive  

Introduction Summer 2015

 

I spent this past year contemplating. The existential sort- of the dangerously bottomless thought variety. The end of last year's adventure was left hanging on our site, but has been tied up in drafts, video projects and memoiresque ramblings, I have played with and collected offline. The stillness here at lookingforjohnnymuir was real though; is real. I have yet to be as impacted, moved and changed in such a way, by six weeks of open unknown. The whole essence of my experience was felt and viewed in a very second person sort of way. My head was home to a new realization that trumped and enveloped my existing troops of hummingbird thoughts and unresolved questions. No longer was my disconnection to my heart and fuel at the forefront of my mind, but encased. I seemed to be fluttering inside a glass bowl of the more imminent disconnection I now knew; that which lives between man and earth. 

Ok so how do I pick a new summer plan for my family? I just fell in love with walking, with sleeping outside, with surviving and leading my beasts through the mountains with everything we needed on our backs. But I didn't want to stick to what we knew, despite the worlds left unseen and unhiked by us. I wanted a new world, and put off deciding on our summer, until I couldn't avoid it anymore. As late as almost June, I scrambled my vacation time (mucho gracias Q-State), tax refund and discount flight sites to Yahtzee a plan. After finding Marie-Cecile's and James' Institute of Oceanology (working to preserve the coast and farmlands, as well as the soul and community in Guanacaste), I went with Costa Rica.

So listen, listen, listen: should you choose to read along, do so at your own risk! I will not be proofing, and apologize ahead of time for autocorrections, typos and nonsensical posts. But you will be along for the ride, in all it's absurd glory. This trip is grossly underprepared. Our Spanish is atrocious and bears an off balanced French accent. But acclimating and living in a Spanish speaking country for a month, daily ocean exploration and surf, rainforest hikes and crazy biodiversity, mountains and volcanoes..all seemed to offer the possibility of new. A new box of comfort was set to escape, and I believe, our last great comfort escape might lend wisdom to this summer's travels and challenges. Or maybe we will just lounge on the beach. 

July 28, 2015

July 28, 2015